Taking THE step

I feel like I am on a limb.

 It's shaky. 

Not very sturdy. 

It's up pretty high. 

And somehow I need to jump. 

But I'm scared. Nervous. Anxious. Excited because who knows what's going to happen after this. 

I trust in something that is bigger than my self. 

And as I take the leap, I feel wings growing and I take flight. 

This is how I felt as I was driving three other girls from Delaware, Ohio to Kearney, Nebraska. I was so scared and nervous driving and being in charge of these three ladies lives, and my own. I was also scared about getting there. What are we going to do? Who are we going to meet? What is this summer going to be like? I knew it was going to be a hard summer but I didn't realize how rough it's going to be. Until I went on Facebook Thursday morning (today). Hilary Mankin, my friend, my co-worker, she lived down the hall from me died in her apartment in Bowling Green the night before. She was 20 years old, a theatre major and had the most outgoing, wonderful personality and I can't believe that she is gone. Why not start off a summer that I know was going to be hard, with something that I have never experienced before or dealt with before? I am right now understanding that when I go back to BG she is not going to be there and that is a hard thing to realize. ***Hilary is the one on the far left in the picture below. Hilary, Melanie (in the middle) and I were all Co-RA's on the same floor this past school year. ***


I know I need to trust God with everything, have my full faith in Him this summer because He's the only one that I can depend on. So, right now I am trying to understand what that looks like. I know that He's going to do amazing things this summer. I'm just not sure what that is going to be. Just trusting that whatever He does do this summer, it's going to be for the good. Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."


I start working tomorrow, hopefully. I am not sure really what it entails but I found out that I will be housekeeping all the main buildings here at YMCA of the Rockies. I guess I will see what I will have to do! 


I want to take this time to thank everyone who supported me. I would love to mention names but that would be more than 30 people (financially) but more than that with prayer. However, all of you are SO important in my life. Getting here, and doing this is going to be so amazing. I know God is going to change my life and you're apart of it. Thank you so much, seriously, in an indirect way, you are changing my life through God. 


2 Corinthians 5:6-7 "So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight.